Playoffs.

Old School photo.  GO RAVENS!!

I'm dying from cuteness.

school.

Tomorrow the new semester starts & I am DREADING it.  Not only am I still sick, but we are still trying to unpack & paint & get living in this house.  Tony trips in tomorrow, too, & I swear, with all of us sick, I have no idea how I'm going to get back into the swing of things, schoolwise.

Wish me luck.  I'm gonna need it.

I'm sick.

Like, on death's doorstep kind of sick.  And of course, Tony is in the field (and is the beginning stages of said sickness so I'm actually thankful he isn't home- because I CANNOT handle Man Colds- and for emphasis, this link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VbmbMSrsZVQ).

So, I have nothing to report.  I can barely function with the boys right now.

in trying to decide...

What I wanted to write about tonight, I realize I got nothin'.

It was a day.  Not good, not bad.

Tony goes to the field tomorrow.  So maybe tomorrow I'll have something to write about.

But for tonight, I'll leave you with this:

Lifegroup.

Man, I am so thankful for this bunch of women- & especially to my friend Rebecca for getting me involved.  Today we skipped the formal lifegroup session & socialized, which I totally needed.  I was able to vent some of the things that have been really weighing on me lately & through some tears & tea & muffins, I left feeling a little more at peace with myself.

I'm slowly learning that I can't make people happy.  People have to make themselves happy & no matter how hard I try, it's just wasting energy to do it.  I pray for certain people in my life who need to find their happy & need to learn to live for God instead of living while waiting for God to give them something.  I myself am bad at this- and only just now learning that I need to give all to Him so that I can live like no one else later (throwing a little Dave Ramsey in there too).

Anyway, thanks to them & some prayer that seemed pretty powerful to me (the girls prayed for me today with all that's going on in my life & some of the things I rarely talk about in my blog or elsewhere- you just don't need to know, haha)- I felt stronger for the rest of the day & even after some things that really upset me tonight, I know that I can handle it.

I wonder if these women will ever know how much I appreciate them, since I only really see them once a week & it's not like they call me when they need to vent- although I'd be MORE than happy to listen & try to help- but knowing that at least once a week I have a place to go where I can say how I feel & know that it will stay there, & have some snacks & prayer means the absolute world to me.  Truly.

It's amazing how fast life can change.  I'm so thankful for all the ways I'm blessed by the Lord & I can only hope that I can learn more & more to truly follow Him.

tomorrow.

Tomorrow is the big day!  I'm pretty excited to get into our house & have a place of our own.  When Tony & I moved in together it was in my townhouse that I bought in South Carolina, & here it's military housing so this is *technically* our first home together.  I'm really looking forward to being able to decorate & make it our own.

I'm a little nervous about how Cody will do in the new house.  I know Sawyer won't know the difference since he's not that old, but I know Cody will probably be a little weirded out by it.  I'm crossing my fingers that he'll adjust quickly & sleep well.

I'm in love with the whole country home decor, so it will be fun to paint the walls & turn it into something we'll love.  I really can't wait! :)

We'll be without Internet for a few days, so this will be my last post until then.

Adios, amigos!