Sunday, February 27, 2011

I wish I knew...

how to balance time.  I find that I am overrun with housework, homework, & laundry- & I have no motivation to do it.  It's not that I'm lazy- I just want to spend time with the boys & when they are asleep I want some time for myself.

I make lists of things that need to be done & once I check off a few items I find myself looking for something else that isn't on the list.  I've become world's biggest procrastinator.

I keep trying to find a way to do fun things with the boys but more often than not we end up playing with Cody's toys & watching Sesame Street.  I want to teach them & show them so many things.  I hate winter because it makes it hard to go out & play, which is Cody's favorite thing to do.

I want to educate them the best I can, as well as keep our house functioning & stay caught up on homework.  I wish I knew of a way to do it all.  At the risk of sounding ridiculous, I wish I were Supermom.

In addition to having a million things to do, I know I'm not making enough time for faith.  I want so badly to follow Jesus & be a part of something so much bigger than our mundane life.  When I think about God, I know how blessed I am.  I've been given such a precious gift & I just need to find a way to take good care of it.

Saturday, February 26, 2011

I would love

I would love to be one of those people with a super cool looking blog & a ton of followers.

However, I don't even have the energy or drive to blog that often, so I guess it's a good thing I don't.

But I will say this:  I'm pretty interesting.  If I had the motivation, this blog would be awesome.

Or maybe I'm just full of garbage.

I'd venture to say the second is more accurate.  But my friends love me.

Sunday, February 20, 2011

"You're Welcome"

Tonight after I got Sawyer to bed, the Codester was watching Fresh Beat Band, & I wanted to get his toys put away.  I asked him to help & he said "no", the little stinker.  I got him to stand up & help me eventually, & when we were done, I said, "Cody, thank you for helping me put your toys away".  He said, "you're welcome"- for the first time, in the CLEAREST voice I've ever heard.  Honestly, it creeped me out a little because he sounded like an adult.  I didn't even praise him because I was so shocked, I just sat there for a minute confused, ha!

He's so smart, the little punk.

Friday, February 18, 2011

This is tough.

Tony left for the field today & more recently, Cody is noticing more & more when his daddy isn't here.  So when a car drives by, he'll run to the window & say "daddy".  I have to tell him, "no, daddy is at work".  He usually gets over it pretty quickly, but tonight when I put him to bed he fought it.  He was laying in bed crying for Tony & it absolutely breaks my heart.  I don't know how military wives who have husbands deployed handle it.  It hurts me so much, & Tony is only gone for 3 nights at a time.

Most of the time when Tony is gone, we go & do something the first day so it's less noticeable.  But my lifegroup was cancelled today & I didn't get much sleep last night, so we had a lazy day at home.  Sometimes I wonder if I'm doing a good job since lunch today was mac & cheese & dinner was a frozen pizza.  Usually I put more effort in to it, but I just couldn't bust out Supermom today.  It's 7:41 pm & I can't wait to go to bed.  It's days like this where I question my ability as a mom, but I KNOW in the end I'm doing a good job.  I'm far from perfect, but I love my boys & I know how much they need me.

I told Tony last night the ONLY good thing about him being gone is that I can go to bed early & not feel guilty.  Tonight will be one of those nights.

Saturday, February 12, 2011

Valentines Day.

It's times like this when I wished my husband read my blog.  I was thinking earlier about what the perfect gift for me would be this Valentine's Day.

I would love for Tony to hand me $50 & send me out the door & tell me not to come back for at least 5 hours.  That sounds like bliss.

I would buy a latte at Starbucks & then spend the rest of those precious hours wandering places like Ross, TJ Maxx, Kohl's, & Bed, Bath & Beyond.  I would buy a bunch of random crap that we don't really NEED but would look super cute in our home, & perhaps a new shirt for myself or a piece of jewelry.  I might even get a cheap haircut since I'm so overdue.

Amazing how times have changed.  3 years ago I wanted some big dramatic, romantic evening, complete with flowers & jewels.  Now I want a few hours to myself, ha!

Thursday, February 10, 2011

rice chex & the fresh beat band.

After two days of my sweet little man throwing up as the result of a nasty virus I carried back from Arizona, he's finally back to normal today.  As much as I despise Cody being sick & myself being covered in vomit, it was pretty darn sweet to have him cuddle with me & love on me all day yesterday.

Today, after a two & a half hour nap, he's back to normal.  Jumping & dancing while watching the Fresh Beat Band & throwing an entire bowl of rice chex on the living room floor for the dogs to eat.

Tonight when he was consistently jiggling the door handle to open our bedroom door, signaling to me that he was ready for bathtime & went down fairly easily for bed early, smiled when he kissed Sawyer's sweet sleeping face- & I knew just how blessed I am.

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

oh, Arizona.

I have so much to say.  So much on my mind- but I do not have the time.  I'm headed home on Friday but down to Denver tomorrow.  I'll see you soon, folks.
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